What is this?

Listening to heart felt songs
of what could be
if it where me
when you will see
wishing-watching from afar
in my feels
type of relationships
Almost something happenin'
in a 5 second moment
that seems to be movin' slow
like a movie-suspense scene playin'
What Is This?

Its not like I'm in love
but it may look it
like I am
as I reflect on the words
trying to tap
into a world
I once knew before
a story once lived
bust exist no more
and the melody of it all
flowing in the background
emotions riding with images
I once felt and had
What Is This?

And then something like weight
of tiredness cloaked on me
to find a somebody
that could end this
this question of unclarities
because I am done begging
Finish with feeling of indecisiveness
emptiness and self-desired love
no longer year after
I see couples together
in real life or not
But,you know, for now
Let me be lost
for just a little bit
in my own conscience
therapeutic in the very sense
I find myself returning
to the my present space.
what is this?


Orig. Date is 3/8/2020